I am such a happy girl this very Sunday. Things are going simply swell for me! I just came off a great split second decision vacation to Las Vegas. And now I am gearing out for a weekend full of rehearsal and WORKING OUT!
Today I would simply like to share with you the story of my vacation. Also so I can write down my adventures so I can go back and remember them.
It was a beautiful Friday. We are sitting in the mall with Ruth and she says, "i wonder if Danny Gokey is on tour right now? So I decided I would go home and look it up, because I LOVE me some Danny Gokey. I opened up his site and saw that he was going to be in Vegas on a 4 day stint. Are you kidding me Danny? I want to see you and you are going to Las Vegas. So I text Danielle this. Well Danny will be in Vegas tomorrow........ In response I get a phone call that goes something like this. He is going to Vegas tomorrow, does that mean you wanna go? Well, ummm yea, duh, sure? So anyways, about 4 hours later we are packed up and on our way to Las Vegas.
We stayed that night in Cedar City with some relatives. The drive down consisted a lot of quoting Will & Grace, and singing Glee. Oh and also driving through some sketchy fog! That night we slept.... kinda? It was some of the worst sleep we had in years. After breakfast we were finally on our way to see our Danny. We got a hotel room for a whole $27! Once checked in we went and parked in the parking garage. This parking garage happened to be just about on the opposite world of the hotel tower. So we walked just about 2 miles through the smelly casino to get to our room. Well hey, I needed the exercise.
Once to our room we decided we needed some food and to find Danielle some shoes for the night. For dinner we ate at the ever delicious Pei Wei! Once through the mall we made our way over to DSW shoes. Let me tell you something too, Danielle has the most expensive taste. This is because every shoe the girl liked in the whole 7 football field place was the most expensive. Thus, Danielle leaves without any shoes!
We finally are now ready and set to go watch Danny Gokey! After what seemed like a 9 hour drive, we finally see the sign!!!! We have now become 14 year old girls. EEEEE! Danny Gokey tonight!!!! I was a little dissapointed because we had missed the opportunity to buy backstage passes! But, I was still sooooo excited to see this man! On the other hand I was particulary excited because well, this day had been so lucky already that I knew only good things would continue to happen!
Valet takes the car, we get in line for will call, took a pee, and sat in our magnificent seats. We have been waiting for this moment for a long, long time. Danny Gokey comes out and put on a magnificent concert! He tells us the adorable story of how he proposed to Sophia, and how he is running is charity. This man is the whole package. Then he is almost done when he says, "my manager says I can sign at the merchandise table after the concert for as many people as time allows." I turn to Danielle, and ask if he really said that and yes he did!!!! We decided we would run AFAP "as fast as possible" to the merchandise table. We are about 15th in line and one of our biggest dreams are about to come true. We buy are posters, have the camera ready and out he comes! It is finally our turn, he signs our posters and takes a picture with Danielle! (cutest picture ever Mrs. Gokey) Ha and then I go to take a picture with him and the camera is our of memory, but that is besides the point! Well, we have just met one of our most favorite singers! WE ARE IN SEVENTH HEAVEN!
Once we had grown up to maybe about 17 years old we decide to move on with our night. Remember when I said we were very tired because the previous nights sleep sucked? Well either on eof us had taken a picture by the famous Las Vegas sign at the end of the strip,. So we park and walk up to the sign, and find Elvis hanging out there. Elvis proceeds to tell us how cool he is and that he has been on t.v. for over 15 years. (so why are you hanging out by the Vegas sign:) He convinces us he has to take our picture and make us give him 5 bucks. Ah haha he was the most strange thing ever! He sand to danielle and all!
At this point I was so excited, weirded out and tired and one person could be. So we decide we need Del Taco before bed. We pull up to the order board and there is a black truck filled with white trash. This was a modified little truck of some sorty. We are sitting their talking waiting for the food when we all of a sudden hear a hissing sound. THIS CAR HAD A HYDROLICS SYSTEM! Haha they were making the car go up and down. I was about to pee my pants laughing.
Well we finally made it to sleep! This had officially become one of the best nights of my life! Well 300 miles later, Danielle's windshield wiper flying off the car in mid drive, and a snow storm later, I am finally home. It was literally 48 hours of lots of laughs and some of the most fun I have ever had!
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Friday, January 28, 2011
Ignorance is bliss?
And a drum roll please, because it is Friday! Thank the heavens above for the weekend even though oddly enough... I actually hate weekends. This week I have had one of the best weeks in quite some time. I am still here as part of the unemployed world (pathetic I know.) But, I was able to attend the BYU basketball game against SDSU. It was the greatest game I have ever been too. Yes, even better than some of the football games against the U. I have officially fallen in love with Jimmers little smile! He is the darn cutest thing alive! I will be thoroughly entertained by this team in the next few months.
I also have been very grateful for my best good friend Danielle in the last few weeks. I have not had much drive to do anything and she has kept me going. We have had much fun going to the gym and watching American Idol! So to her I say thank you for keeping my ever so boring life happy!
My thought today has to do with the daily TRASH that we are surrounded with! It has been brought to my attention in the last few weeks exactly how horrible all the film entertainment is! I have listened to some people explain to me some horrible scenes from The Black Swan, Jersey Shore, Skins etc. All these trashy "reality" shows are all about sex. Children as young as 14 years old are going through high school worried about who they are going to get "lucky" with. If I am not wrong the Jersey Shore has a room called the "Smash" room, and I can only imagine what that is for. Not only sex but sexuality, drugs, stealing, lying. All these shows depict everything you shouldn't be seeing!
I have only been worried because a few things have been brought to my attention. #1 my 11 year old sister would be able to get home from school, turn on the turn and just be able to see this crap! #2 Can't I watch anything anymore that has my morals and values? The answer is almost everytime NO. There honestly has been about 1 of every 15 movies made that are even up to par with what I like to watch. My favorite is this new Ashton Kutcher movie about casual sex..... ARE YOU KIDDING ME???? I am appaled! I don't care what religion, age, gender, race you are. We are painting a horrible picture for our younger generations. I can't even remember a show when I was 11...only 10 years ago!, that would have anything close to this crap on it. The standards of this young generation are deteriorating so fast! I am sorry but having a "casual sex" buddy is not okay, and just because they fall in love at the end does not make it okay! Why cant someone just write something funny, with good all fashioned humor?
When these kids watch this crap they think it is okay to act like this! Now I get that with every generation things are always changing and evolving. But for things like the F bomb, and drugs, and sex to be incorporated into every day activities is not something to be taken lightly. I apologize for this tangent but I don't think this is okay anymore. It honestly makes me think twice about every having children! Why would I want to bring a child into this world and surround them with such junk?
All I ask is think twice about what your kids are watching and the type of kids they are hanging out with. It is impossible to hide from terrible things, but we can all try to do a little better. Its cool to have morals and values... I PROMISE!
I do hope everyone a wonderful weekend of peace and rest!
Stand a Little Taller
I also have been very grateful for my best good friend Danielle in the last few weeks. I have not had much drive to do anything and she has kept me going. We have had much fun going to the gym and watching American Idol! So to her I say thank you for keeping my ever so boring life happy!
My thought today has to do with the daily TRASH that we are surrounded with! It has been brought to my attention in the last few weeks exactly how horrible all the film entertainment is! I have listened to some people explain to me some horrible scenes from The Black Swan, Jersey Shore, Skins etc. All these trashy "reality" shows are all about sex. Children as young as 14 years old are going through high school worried about who they are going to get "lucky" with. If I am not wrong the Jersey Shore has a room called the "Smash" room, and I can only imagine what that is for. Not only sex but sexuality, drugs, stealing, lying. All these shows depict everything you shouldn't be seeing!
I have only been worried because a few things have been brought to my attention. #1 my 11 year old sister would be able to get home from school, turn on the turn and just be able to see this crap! #2 Can't I watch anything anymore that has my morals and values? The answer is almost everytime NO. There honestly has been about 1 of every 15 movies made that are even up to par with what I like to watch. My favorite is this new Ashton Kutcher movie about casual sex..... ARE YOU KIDDING ME???? I am appaled! I don't care what religion, age, gender, race you are. We are painting a horrible picture for our younger generations. I can't even remember a show when I was 11...only 10 years ago!, that would have anything close to this crap on it. The standards of this young generation are deteriorating so fast! I am sorry but having a "casual sex" buddy is not okay, and just because they fall in love at the end does not make it okay! Why cant someone just write something funny, with good all fashioned humor?
When these kids watch this crap they think it is okay to act like this! Now I get that with every generation things are always changing and evolving. But for things like the F bomb, and drugs, and sex to be incorporated into every day activities is not something to be taken lightly. I apologize for this tangent but I don't think this is okay anymore. It honestly makes me think twice about every having children! Why would I want to bring a child into this world and surround them with such junk?
All I ask is think twice about what your kids are watching and the type of kids they are hanging out with. It is impossible to hide from terrible things, but we can all try to do a little better. Its cool to have morals and values... I PROMISE!
I do hope everyone a wonderful weekend of peace and rest!
Stand a Little Taller
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Big heads and help
Just another day in the drivers seat of an "amazing" life! hehe. I did absolutely nothing most of the day. I did actually stay in bed because I did not feel too well. But then I decided that a little Benni Benassi would put my mind in the right place to do a little working out. Cut to 10:20 tonight and I went and saw The Fighter. It was a beautiful movie! Very wonderfully made with acting like I have not seen in quite a while, Christian Bale did a fabulous job!
Todays thought comes from right out of my amazing brain!! You can take this either as a spiritual meaning or just in day to day life. As being part of our worlds economical trouble, a lot of hard times have hit us. Most people to some extent or another have felt the affects of lost jobs, reposessed homes, reduction of pay, closing of companies, bankruptcy etc. There are very few people you could run into that have not seen some effect of our economy. Some families have turned to working 2 jobs or more, selling homes for apartments, postponing plans for school, etc. In some cases some families have taken another route such as asking for help. Most as for help from family, church, donation, welfare. As being someone who recently had to apply for unemployment I now understand. If you have been an indedependent person and have always made your own way in life, it can be very hard to ask for help. Most believe asking for help means admitting that you have failed or have done something wrong. Just ask your self for a moment how you view some of these situations.
You also can take this content and form it into a spiritual meaning. On a basic level and without being religion specific, just think of what your daily routine for beliefs follow. Most of us believe it is important to have faith and trust in our higher power. While most of us go about our day taking for granted what we have been given, we completely forget what a beautiful gift we have been given. At some point in our lives or another most of us will fall upon "hard times," During these times we forget that we have someone watching over us. If you are anything like me, I fall into a bad habit of only praying when you feel impressed to ask for something. For me this comes with a price of guilt. I hate taking my Heavenly Fathers love for granted and only returning a thank you when I have fallen upon hard times. Never the less, the prayer system has been put in place to give thanks and to ask upon for help. Again comes in the part where we feel a little prideful to ask for help. It will again force us to say out loud something that has gone wrong in our life.
"Just because you ask for help does not mean you have failed, it means your not in it alone."
We have been put here on this earth for other people for a reason. They are here for us and is why we have been given great family and friends. We need to realize that we as humans do not need help just when we have fallen upon hard times. We should go about every day asking for help and returning the help. We can always better our selves! In return for one favor and receiving of another, the task of asking for help when we need it will not be so hard. It is okay to turn to others and ask for help. It is what we call our support system. More than often you will find others are more than happy to help!
Stand a little taller
Todays thought comes from right out of my amazing brain!! You can take this either as a spiritual meaning or just in day to day life. As being part of our worlds economical trouble, a lot of hard times have hit us. Most people to some extent or another have felt the affects of lost jobs, reposessed homes, reduction of pay, closing of companies, bankruptcy etc. There are very few people you could run into that have not seen some effect of our economy. Some families have turned to working 2 jobs or more, selling homes for apartments, postponing plans for school, etc. In some cases some families have taken another route such as asking for help. Most as for help from family, church, donation, welfare. As being someone who recently had to apply for unemployment I now understand. If you have been an indedependent person and have always made your own way in life, it can be very hard to ask for help. Most believe asking for help means admitting that you have failed or have done something wrong. Just ask your self for a moment how you view some of these situations.
You also can take this content and form it into a spiritual meaning. On a basic level and without being religion specific, just think of what your daily routine for beliefs follow. Most of us believe it is important to have faith and trust in our higher power. While most of us go about our day taking for granted what we have been given, we completely forget what a beautiful gift we have been given. At some point in our lives or another most of us will fall upon "hard times," During these times we forget that we have someone watching over us. If you are anything like me, I fall into a bad habit of only praying when you feel impressed to ask for something. For me this comes with a price of guilt. I hate taking my Heavenly Fathers love for granted and only returning a thank you when I have fallen upon hard times. Never the less, the prayer system has been put in place to give thanks and to ask upon for help. Again comes in the part where we feel a little prideful to ask for help. It will again force us to say out loud something that has gone wrong in our life.
"Just because you ask for help does not mean you have failed, it means your not in it alone."
We have been put here on this earth for other people for a reason. They are here for us and is why we have been given great family and friends. We need to realize that we as humans do not need help just when we have fallen upon hard times. We should go about every day asking for help and returning the help. We can always better our selves! In return for one favor and receiving of another, the task of asking for help when we need it will not be so hard. It is okay to turn to others and ask for help. It is what we call our support system. More than often you will find others are more than happy to help!
Stand a little taller
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Your biggest challenge
Today was meh. I was bland and boring and I had a feeling of being worthless. Well because these days I am. I did wake up at a normal hour, and I sat around watching Grey's Anatomy. Its one of my comforting things I have in life. Oh yes, I did make a run down to the drug store with grandpa (this would be the highlight of my day.) I did get in a very good workout with Danielle though. It is something that I hate doing, but I know mmy fat does not go away on its own. So I try to make the habit and move on.
I apologize, I am a little numb today but felt that blogging is a good therapy tool that I enjoy. I am not sure if it is the sound of the keyboard or my new found love for writing? Either way I am here to share!
Todays thought is provoked by my boring life! If you bear with me I may bore you to death today. These days I have been a little on the dont give a living crap side. I have now officially not worked for about a month. Once you have had the joy of sleeping in everyday and not even having a worry about work, it is hard to get motivated to find a job. I also have many challenges that come along with my new life. I cannot for the life of me even imagine going back to an old boring job. In the last few weeks many thoughts have been running through my mind. Can I live without working? Does any one have a job for me in Italy? Can I just make up my own job and gather millions of dollars? I know... I am a dreamer. But, it is hard to sometimes face reality when you have reached the end of the rope. It is very hard on me mentally being 21 and still having no direction for life. I have done nothing to set myself up for future success. For me I do a lot more of beating myself up when I think about my past. No one wants to face reality, but I have been forced to face a harsh one right now.
I literally have sat up at night wondering what it is I could possibly go to school for. Is it a bad sign when you have had the last 6 years to think about it and still nothing sparks my interest? Well, so maybe school is not for me? But I swear I cannot take one more day of customer service! I would literally rather jump off a cliff over the grand canyon.
So what is my fix to all of this? I sit here... I spend my day counting calories and gearing up for my next workout. I spend my days looking through the t.v. beating my self up about my life. Do I complain a lot? yes! Well, maybe that is my problem. So for today that is what is my biggest challenge. I have a lot of life left to go ya know? Will I be faced with the same questions in another 6 years? Hopefully not. Until that point I will put faith in my Heavenly Father and just continue to be a little numb for now.
Stand a little taller
I apologize, I am a little numb today but felt that blogging is a good therapy tool that I enjoy. I am not sure if it is the sound of the keyboard or my new found love for writing? Either way I am here to share!
Todays thought is provoked by my boring life! If you bear with me I may bore you to death today. These days I have been a little on the dont give a living crap side. I have now officially not worked for about a month. Once you have had the joy of sleeping in everyday and not even having a worry about work, it is hard to get motivated to find a job. I also have many challenges that come along with my new life. I cannot for the life of me even imagine going back to an old boring job. In the last few weeks many thoughts have been running through my mind. Can I live without working? Does any one have a job for me in Italy? Can I just make up my own job and gather millions of dollars? I know... I am a dreamer. But, it is hard to sometimes face reality when you have reached the end of the rope. It is very hard on me mentally being 21 and still having no direction for life. I have done nothing to set myself up for future success. For me I do a lot more of beating myself up when I think about my past. No one wants to face reality, but I have been forced to face a harsh one right now.
I literally have sat up at night wondering what it is I could possibly go to school for. Is it a bad sign when you have had the last 6 years to think about it and still nothing sparks my interest? Well, so maybe school is not for me? But I swear I cannot take one more day of customer service! I would literally rather jump off a cliff over the grand canyon.
So what is my fix to all of this? I sit here... I spend my day counting calories and gearing up for my next workout. I spend my days looking through the t.v. beating my self up about my life. Do I complain a lot? yes! Well, maybe that is my problem. So for today that is what is my biggest challenge. I have a lot of life left to go ya know? Will I be faced with the same questions in another 6 years? Hopefully not. Until that point I will put faith in my Heavenly Father and just continue to be a little numb for now.
Stand a little taller
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Fairytales are?
I had quite a magical day today. As many of you know I am blue blooded and a true cougar. I took much pride and joy watching BYU scalp the Utes tonight. Jimmer had 47 point! And also made a half court shot. It doesn't get much better. I also woke up at about noon. I am quite disguisted with my self! P.S. this is the part where I will now be taking suggestions on how to proceed with my life? Because I certainly have no idea!
Has anyone played Just Dance? I am my self quite addicted to it! It is quite the grand time. We played it on Saturday night for about 3 good hours. Lets hope that worked off the McDonalds and sugar cookies Amanda and I ate. That is about the only form of exercise I am getting in the last week. I am having a hard time motivating my self to go to the gym. It just seems so much better when you have someone walking next to you. But when your gym partner (Robyn) bails... I have my 87 grandpa with me! But somehow not the same. Lets hope I can at least stick to my diet and continue to see a little bit of weight loss. Maybe next week my give a damn will be in check.
Todays thought is brought to me by Grey's Anatomy. I have also dreamed of working in the medical profession. Specifically I have always dreamed of being a Cardio Thoracic surgeon. Lets just all laugh in synch, becasue there is no way in hell I am smart enough for that! Okay, so I will just live vicariously through Grety's Anatomy.If anyone has watched the show they will know it start usually with Meredith giving a quote or saying something profound that has to do with the episode and also ends the same way. One of my favorite episodes has to do with fairytales. It begins and has you think of your fairytale and I will ask you to do the same. What is your fairytale? In the change of a new year I am on the search this year for the fairytale of my own. I believe I am doing nesseccary changes to get my much needed fairytale. I have many of them, losing weight, starting my life over, finding where I belong in the world of work, finding my eternal companion.
I have a vision of endless smarts coming to me and tuition being paid so I can become a doctor. I will meet the man of my dreams in this ivy league school I go too. We will get married and have 3 beautiful children. In this life we will live in Virginia and have a vacation home Florida. We will eventually be able to travel to Italy (because I will be fluent in this language) and live there every summer. Once retirement comes along we will build a white house with blue shutter and a wrap around porch. And it is there we will live our last days surrounded by 3 generations of posterity.
Oh wait, come back to reality crazy! Fairytales are the stuff of dreams. They are as one, and never come true!
Stand a little taller
Has anyone played Just Dance? I am my self quite addicted to it! It is quite the grand time. We played it on Saturday night for about 3 good hours. Lets hope that worked off the McDonalds and sugar cookies Amanda and I ate. That is about the only form of exercise I am getting in the last week. I am having a hard time motivating my self to go to the gym. It just seems so much better when you have someone walking next to you. But when your gym partner (Robyn) bails... I have my 87 grandpa with me! But somehow not the same. Lets hope I can at least stick to my diet and continue to see a little bit of weight loss. Maybe next week my give a damn will be in check.
Todays thought is brought to me by Grey's Anatomy. I have also dreamed of working in the medical profession. Specifically I have always dreamed of being a Cardio Thoracic surgeon. Lets just all laugh in synch, becasue there is no way in hell I am smart enough for that! Okay, so I will just live vicariously through Grety's Anatomy.If anyone has watched the show they will know it start usually with Meredith giving a quote or saying something profound that has to do with the episode and also ends the same way. One of my favorite episodes has to do with fairytales. It begins and has you think of your fairytale and I will ask you to do the same. What is your fairytale? In the change of a new year I am on the search this year for the fairytale of my own. I believe I am doing nesseccary changes to get my much needed fairytale. I have many of them, losing weight, starting my life over, finding where I belong in the world of work, finding my eternal companion.
I have a vision of endless smarts coming to me and tuition being paid so I can become a doctor. I will meet the man of my dreams in this ivy league school I go too. We will get married and have 3 beautiful children. In this life we will live in Virginia and have a vacation home Florida. We will eventually be able to travel to Italy (because I will be fluent in this language) and live there every summer. Once retirement comes along we will build a white house with blue shutter and a wrap around porch. And it is there we will live our last days surrounded by 3 generations of posterity.
Oh wait, come back to reality crazy! Fairytales are the stuff of dreams. They are as one, and never come true!
Stand a little taller
Friday, January 7, 2011
Keep moving forward
I am very saddened by a broken promise and I have missed 2 days of blogging. You can say like with Josh Groban that I am obsessed with it. I had a BEAUTIFUL time in St. George with my Mom! It was great to spend time with her. On the way back in the stinking construction zone i ran right over an orange cone, and it never came out the other side. haha, then we could feel it dragging on the bottom of the car. So about 3 miles later pop!, there it goes out the back side! While there we also enjoyed some fine chinese cuisine... and whie paying a little baby cockroach crawled accross the checkout counter. Eek!
Today I spent the better part of the day cleaning up my Christmas junk! It does feel much better to put things away and have all decoration back to normal and have everything put away. I believe I get too excited about re organizing and a clean bedroom. But, I am sure that is a quality not to be complained of.
I also spent the whole day dying of hunder. I am still following my diet, and well this weeks diet sucks. I do vow to stay with it though. I feel very strongly about me losing my weight this time! I hate the act of this lifestyle change, but I know I will feel so much better when I reach this goal! I can't even imagine being skinnier, I wonder what it is like. I hope I do not have to wonder much longer. I am staying motivated by the biggest loser. That show is so very addicting!
Todays thought comes from a quote by a man that inspires me almost above any other public figure. This man is Walt Disney. "Around here, however, we do not look backwards for very long. We keep moving forward, opening up new doors and doing new things... and curiosity will keep leading us down new paths". It simply speaks for itself. I simply hate new years resolutions. Whenever I feel inspiration come through is when I start a "resolution" And at this time I have dubbed this year all about me. I am putting a foot down and taking this year for myself. I am going to be selfish and try to learn more about my self. I feel as if I have not taken a moment to understand what it is I want from life. I find myself always at the mercy of wanting to make others happy and never have contention, and this results in bad decisions made on my part. There is plenty of things I need to fix and change in my life. I have vowed to do that this year, and I am off to a great start! I am okay with being selfish for a while. I hope to adopt many lifestyle changes and adopting new habits. I feel it in the back of my mind, I have a little voice telling me, stop looking backwards, open new doors and KEEP MOVING FORWARD! That is the 2nd of my two mottos KEEP MOVING FORWARD! I believe we all owe it to ourselves to stop and reflect, get over it and move forward. So take a moment to think what you would like to move forward with, or get over with. Have a clean heart and mind and I believe that this will bring us back to happiness.
Stand a little taller
Today I spent the better part of the day cleaning up my Christmas junk! It does feel much better to put things away and have all decoration back to normal and have everything put away. I believe I get too excited about re organizing and a clean bedroom. But, I am sure that is a quality not to be complained of.
I also spent the whole day dying of hunder. I am still following my diet, and well this weeks diet sucks. I do vow to stay with it though. I feel very strongly about me losing my weight this time! I hate the act of this lifestyle change, but I know I will feel so much better when I reach this goal! I can't even imagine being skinnier, I wonder what it is like. I hope I do not have to wonder much longer. I am staying motivated by the biggest loser. That show is so very addicting!
Todays thought comes from a quote by a man that inspires me almost above any other public figure. This man is Walt Disney. "Around here, however, we do not look backwards for very long. We keep moving forward, opening up new doors and doing new things... and curiosity will keep leading us down new paths". It simply speaks for itself. I simply hate new years resolutions. Whenever I feel inspiration come through is when I start a "resolution" And at this time I have dubbed this year all about me. I am putting a foot down and taking this year for myself. I am going to be selfish and try to learn more about my self. I feel as if I have not taken a moment to understand what it is I want from life. I find myself always at the mercy of wanting to make others happy and never have contention, and this results in bad decisions made on my part. There is plenty of things I need to fix and change in my life. I have vowed to do that this year, and I am off to a great start! I am okay with being selfish for a while. I hope to adopt many lifestyle changes and adopting new habits. I feel it in the back of my mind, I have a little voice telling me, stop looking backwards, open new doors and KEEP MOVING FORWARD! That is the 2nd of my two mottos KEEP MOVING FORWARD! I believe we all owe it to ourselves to stop and reflect, get over it and move forward. So take a moment to think what you would like to move forward with, or get over with. Have a clean heart and mind and I believe that this will bring us back to happiness.
Stand a little taller
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
A little mamma and a little mamma mia!
So today embarked a journey of a road trip with my mom to St. George. We are here at what I have dubbed "the nicest motel in the whole world"! I have enjoyed spending time with my mamma. With busy schedules and as we grow older it is not very easy to have much time together. I consider myself very blessed to have this time with her.
I have always wondered why St. George was a place "desired" to go when were in high school! We get here, go to the mall, saw polygamists = awesome!!! Go to dinner at Cafe Rio at 5:00, you would think mayhem... but not so much! Then the movie theaters are empty, but that is because they don't have one stadium seated place and they are all crappy movies. I really dont desire to see the fokers, or yogi bear, thanks but I will pass. Also 6:30 and all stores are shut down and people are all at home! No one stays out here! So i guess in Rome you do what the Romans do... Well in St. George you do what St. Georgians do. I am sitting here at 7:00 in pajamas and ready for bed! Not that my life follows any sort of schedule right now, so why not try it!! P.S. watching dirty jobs, could Mike Rowe be any more dreamy?! NO
Todays thought comes from an experience of Hell! As you all know recently I lost my job, and I could not be happier! But I am thankful for the experiences and learned a lot about lies, deceit, morons, and hard work. I would say the job emotionally was very draining. I worked with people that were put in situations and no longer had ultimate control of their lives. Need less to say they had no one to blame but themselves, but they would still try. A small sketch of the job. I worked on loan modifications, 10% of home owners literally had no control and got in a sticky spot with work. 90% of the rest of them, lost their jobs but never stopped spending and ultimately did not use their brains, or think about consequences. So they came to my company for help. Well generally 1 year would not be a long wait for the mortgage company to consider my request. As these home owners became more and more behind and foreclosure ensued... they would try to blame me. I spent 10 months listening to these people yell at me and how foreclosure was my fault because I was taking so long! Ahh mamma mia, are you kidding me?!
Anyways, I have become 100% stress free since leaving that horrible place! It just put a lot of thinking into motion for me. I never thought before this to go through the motions before I became upset or angry. We always get mad at the waitress when our steak is cooked wrong, or we yell at the delivery man when our package is late, I waited 30 minutes for my table and you said it would be 15, hey checker your stupid the candy bar says it's 65cents not $1.25!
Well before this job I would have always been one of those people. Quick to judge and jump to conclusions! But really think.. it generally is never just 1 persons fault. Next time you are feeling frustrated with the process just stop and think. You will usually find it is not the checkers fault that you wait more than 90 days to return your item which is now on clearance. It's also not her fault that Target put that stupid policy into motion. It's not realy Hilary's fault that your mortgage payment is behind, and it is also not her fault that the bank is taking so long to process the request. It is not the waiters fault that the dummy in back couldn't follow her paper and cook your steak well done and sends it out bloody. I feel we would all have a lifted lighter feeling if we could all take a deep breath and settle down! Don't be so excited to jump down someone's throat if you have not gone through the sequence of events. It usually takes more than 1 to create a problem. Just keep that in mind next time and I think you will be able to stay calm a little better.
Tomorrow is the hump day and I hope you all can get through it!
Stand a little taller
I have always wondered why St. George was a place "desired" to go when were in high school! We get here, go to the mall, saw polygamists = awesome!!! Go to dinner at Cafe Rio at 5:00, you would think mayhem... but not so much! Then the movie theaters are empty, but that is because they don't have one stadium seated place and they are all crappy movies. I really dont desire to see the fokers, or yogi bear, thanks but I will pass. Also 6:30 and all stores are shut down and people are all at home! No one stays out here! So i guess in Rome you do what the Romans do... Well in St. George you do what St. Georgians do. I am sitting here at 7:00 in pajamas and ready for bed! Not that my life follows any sort of schedule right now, so why not try it!! P.S. watching dirty jobs, could Mike Rowe be any more dreamy?! NO
Todays thought comes from an experience of Hell! As you all know recently I lost my job, and I could not be happier! But I am thankful for the experiences and learned a lot about lies, deceit, morons, and hard work. I would say the job emotionally was very draining. I worked with people that were put in situations and no longer had ultimate control of their lives. Need less to say they had no one to blame but themselves, but they would still try. A small sketch of the job. I worked on loan modifications, 10% of home owners literally had no control and got in a sticky spot with work. 90% of the rest of them, lost their jobs but never stopped spending and ultimately did not use their brains, or think about consequences. So they came to my company for help. Well generally 1 year would not be a long wait for the mortgage company to consider my request. As these home owners became more and more behind and foreclosure ensued... they would try to blame me. I spent 10 months listening to these people yell at me and how foreclosure was my fault because I was taking so long! Ahh mamma mia, are you kidding me?!
Anyways, I have become 100% stress free since leaving that horrible place! It just put a lot of thinking into motion for me. I never thought before this to go through the motions before I became upset or angry. We always get mad at the waitress when our steak is cooked wrong, or we yell at the delivery man when our package is late, I waited 30 minutes for my table and you said it would be 15, hey checker your stupid the candy bar says it's 65cents not $1.25!
Well before this job I would have always been one of those people. Quick to judge and jump to conclusions! But really think.. it generally is never just 1 persons fault. Next time you are feeling frustrated with the process just stop and think. You will usually find it is not the checkers fault that you wait more than 90 days to return your item which is now on clearance. It's also not her fault that Target put that stupid policy into motion. It's not realy Hilary's fault that your mortgage payment is behind, and it is also not her fault that the bank is taking so long to process the request. It is not the waiters fault that the dummy in back couldn't follow her paper and cook your steak well done and sends it out bloody. I feel we would all have a lifted lighter feeling if we could all take a deep breath and settle down! Don't be so excited to jump down someone's throat if you have not gone through the sequence of events. It usually takes more than 1 to create a problem. Just keep that in mind next time and I think you will be able to stay calm a little better.
Tomorrow is the hump day and I hope you all can get through it!
Stand a little taller
Monday, January 3, 2011
Coming Soon.....
Ahhh majestic Monday! Today held the promise of a workout and Classic Skating! Because daniielle gets to have the 2 week long birthday festivities.... and I am not complaining! We have had a lot of fun and the numerous parties and playing just dance about 19 times, good game. I actually think I should call today moron Monday because well today I was a moron. Not that it wasn't bad enough having to use the razor scooter at the skating rink, well because I am just too special to use roller blades.
So moron Monday made its peak today when I went to pick up the chicken nuggets from high school. Settled in my car, they get in, and I am hungry. I convinced my self that betos would be a "healthy" alternative to fast food. So there I was driving toward the new rancheritos where hogi yogi was in PG. I pull in go around to the drive thru. I rolled the window down and was talking to the chicken nuggets. A few moments go by and I thought "hmmm. I should have been greeted by now or something?! So Max yells "yo girl, my girl Hilary is ready to order..... and nothing. I thought gee whizz how rude we are done here! I pull around and there on the front window a big giant sign reads....COMING SOON! Ah haha I have not laughed that hard in my life. I thougth Elle and Robyn were going to pee their pants. So I went and got orange chicken, also a healthy alterantive.
Todays thought comes by inspiration through my inspiration! I would like you to think exactly what inspires you. No... really think! What brings you to a perfect center? What calms you so much, that for those few seconds you are perfectly content? What makes you feel truly inspired?
I have been saddened a few times this week through a few stories via facebook, TV, blogs. I hear a constant story. When I stop drinking soda, then I will start my diet. When I start eating healthy, then I will quit smoking, When I make a little more money, I will start to pay my debt down. Dut dut dut dut dut. You know what those are called my friend? excuses! How do I know, because I am the queen of them. I actually think most of us have a doctorite in excuses. Why do we make excuses? It is because we have become so comfortable with our imperfect selves that we feel change is not needed. Deep down while we are making the excuses we think hey, everyone knows I am fat, an alcoholic, smoker, lazy etc. And they have come to accept that. So why change? But also deep down, we know that we need to change, that is why we make the excuses!! It is a viscious cycle. So what do you do?
Remember how I asked you to think about what inspires you? Think again. What inspired Hilary Kay? My family, my future husband and children, a picture of a perfect body running through my mind and music! I have actively been thinking of my inspiration in the last few weeks and that is all I have needed. I have not needed an excuse! It is because I am going for a change instead of making an excuse for that change! I challenge you to make that change! Think of what inspires you. Is it worth sacrificing your inspirations for those excuses. You always, always have someone hoping for you to make that big change. The reward of change is well worth it! So say to yourself, is it worth sacrificing those inspirations for our own selfishness? What inspires you....
Stand a little taller
So moron Monday made its peak today when I went to pick up the chicken nuggets from high school. Settled in my car, they get in, and I am hungry. I convinced my self that betos would be a "healthy" alternative to fast food. So there I was driving toward the new rancheritos where hogi yogi was in PG. I pull in go around to the drive thru. I rolled the window down and was talking to the chicken nuggets. A few moments go by and I thought "hmmm. I should have been greeted by now or something?! So Max yells "yo girl, my girl Hilary is ready to order..... and nothing. I thought gee whizz how rude we are done here! I pull around and there on the front window a big giant sign reads....COMING SOON! Ah haha I have not laughed that hard in my life. I thougth Elle and Robyn were going to pee their pants. So I went and got orange chicken, also a healthy alterantive.
Todays thought comes by inspiration through my inspiration! I would like you to think exactly what inspires you. No... really think! What brings you to a perfect center? What calms you so much, that for those few seconds you are perfectly content? What makes you feel truly inspired?
I have been saddened a few times this week through a few stories via facebook, TV, blogs. I hear a constant story. When I stop drinking soda, then I will start my diet. When I start eating healthy, then I will quit smoking, When I make a little more money, I will start to pay my debt down. Dut dut dut dut dut. You know what those are called my friend? excuses! How do I know, because I am the queen of them. I actually think most of us have a doctorite in excuses. Why do we make excuses? It is because we have become so comfortable with our imperfect selves that we feel change is not needed. Deep down while we are making the excuses we think hey, everyone knows I am fat, an alcoholic, smoker, lazy etc. And they have come to accept that. So why change? But also deep down, we know that we need to change, that is why we make the excuses!! It is a viscious cycle. So what do you do?
Remember how I asked you to think about what inspires you? Think again. What inspired Hilary Kay? My family, my future husband and children, a picture of a perfect body running through my mind and music! I have actively been thinking of my inspiration in the last few weeks and that is all I have needed. I have not needed an excuse! It is because I am going for a change instead of making an excuse for that change! I challenge you to make that change! Think of what inspires you. Is it worth sacrificing your inspirations for those excuses. You always, always have someone hoping for you to make that big change. The reward of change is well worth it! So say to yourself, is it worth sacrificing those inspirations for our own selfishness? What inspires you....
Stand a little taller
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Sabbath Day
In the wake of today I was a little scared of my first blog post. I got a mixed reaction, some said yay your blogging. Others said, you blog now? Whether good or bad I found myself waiting to post my next blog! And... and... I have 6 followers. Yay! (probably all I will ever get)
Can I really be this lucky! Today has been a beautiful day. I had a wonderful fast and testimony meeting and relief society. I then got to spend the other part taking down christmas decorations with my cute family. I then ended the day with a dondie burday party! I was lucky enough to spend 2 days in a row with 2 of my favorite people!
Today's thought comes from a strange reality always staring me in the face! It is something I blissfully choose to ignore, and frankly I am okay with that.
In the last 2 days I have been asked the following questions more than ever before! Why don't we double date? Why don't you date? Why are you not dating? Who are you dating? Literally at least 12 times in the last 2 days. Here are the answers, I would love to double date, I don't know why i am not dating?, No one absolutely no one! :) I realize that in my Utah life my biological time line is ticking. But lets be honest! Lets remember my previous dating history.... o wait I do not have one. It actually kind of scares me. I have never be the one that wanted to sit with a stranger and eat food in a noisy restraunt while we have "small talk." I have really just hoped that the first man I run into will be "the one." Or at least someone who is something of an aqquaintance so things will not be so awkward. I realize all are somewhat scared for me. So in return I will promise to put forth a little more effort! All suggestions are welcome.
P.S. kids I have lost another 6 pounds this week! I feel great!
Stand a little taller
Can I really be this lucky! Today has been a beautiful day. I had a wonderful fast and testimony meeting and relief society. I then got to spend the other part taking down christmas decorations with my cute family. I then ended the day with a dondie burday party! I was lucky enough to spend 2 days in a row with 2 of my favorite people!
Today's thought comes from a strange reality always staring me in the face! It is something I blissfully choose to ignore, and frankly I am okay with that.
In the last 2 days I have been asked the following questions more than ever before! Why don't we double date? Why don't you date? Why are you not dating? Who are you dating? Literally at least 12 times in the last 2 days. Here are the answers, I would love to double date, I don't know why i am not dating?, No one absolutely no one! :) I realize that in my Utah life my biological time line is ticking. But lets be honest! Lets remember my previous dating history.... o wait I do not have one. It actually kind of scares me. I have never be the one that wanted to sit with a stranger and eat food in a noisy restraunt while we have "small talk." I have really just hoped that the first man I run into will be "the one." Or at least someone who is something of an aqquaintance so things will not be so awkward. I realize all are somewhat scared for me. So in return I will promise to put forth a little more effort! All suggestions are welcome.
P.S. kids I have lost another 6 pounds this week! I feel great!
Stand a little taller
It's a new day!
Well kids here I am blogging! I am not so sure about what? But I have been told it is what the cool kids are doing. I do also enjoying writing, it makes me think so it couldn't hurt. It is a very rough draft and I don't know why those darn pictures are so big. But, I am sure once a figure it out it will look pretty!
Today my best good friends and I brought the new year in with a fun party! We played pin the tiara on the princess, mold and guess, glitter toes, chocolate fountain! It was all quite fantastic, and I very much enjoyed my night!! I hope this wonderful day will be one of representation of how my new year will go! Well, because I believe I deserve it!
Tonight's thought comes from a lesson very hard learned! I apologize in advance it is a little tangent but much needed for my conscience.
I have spent almost down to the T 2 years being angry at someone I love very much! It all was very silly I guess? Lets travel back in time. I at one time was a very very happy person, all was well and I had nothing to worry about. I went away on vacation and came back and my whole life had changed. Things in my little bubble had shifted and the fates would have it that my life would never be the same. You see I am an optimist. I am always a person to see the best in people, have a giant heart, and darnit I just can't say no! But, that's okay! So I thought... until I faced the real world! You see I had never thought that over night my life would change or that I couldn't stay 18 for ever, or stay out until midnight... every night! I just always thought life would be great and that I would have the whole world in my hands. Anyways, when life had changed I had been left in the dust. I had been replaced by better things, and life was no longer a fairy tale. You see I moved on, and "got over it" so I thought. But this whole time I have carried around a grudge and a mentality that I was not good enough anymore and that my life just plain ol' sucked.
2 years really.... I wasted you! It was not until 2 weeks ago and I was sitting here contemplating. And then ta=duh, a lightbulb. All this energy you have wasted being mad at this person was for nothing. Because you see this person felt the exact same way about you. That they had been left behind, that they were no longer good enough for you! I should have been overwhelmed with sadness for wasted time, but I became very happy. I finally have the right frame of mind and can go back and repair the hands of time. I can have the world at my hands and I can have what I once had before. Yes not in the same form, but it doesn't matter because it is love! I only hope I did not hurt this person by treating them badly. I know they will read this and to you I say sorry! I am sorry i have played a victim when you have done nothing wrong! I will once again be what you needed me to be for the last 2 years. I promise to be there for you from now on!
I also at the beginning of my blog need to send a shout out to my chicken nuggets. For you are the ones that have inspired me the last few months! An inspiration for much needed change! I hope everyone has a wonderful sabbath day.
Stand a little taller
Today my best good friends and I brought the new year in with a fun party! We played pin the tiara on the princess, mold and guess, glitter toes, chocolate fountain! It was all quite fantastic, and I very much enjoyed my night!! I hope this wonderful day will be one of representation of how my new year will go! Well, because I believe I deserve it!
Tonight's thought comes from a lesson very hard learned! I apologize in advance it is a little tangent but much needed for my conscience.
I have spent almost down to the T 2 years being angry at someone I love very much! It all was very silly I guess? Lets travel back in time. I at one time was a very very happy person, all was well and I had nothing to worry about. I went away on vacation and came back and my whole life had changed. Things in my little bubble had shifted and the fates would have it that my life would never be the same. You see I am an optimist. I am always a person to see the best in people, have a giant heart, and darnit I just can't say no! But, that's okay! So I thought... until I faced the real world! You see I had never thought that over night my life would change or that I couldn't stay 18 for ever, or stay out until midnight... every night! I just always thought life would be great and that I would have the whole world in my hands. Anyways, when life had changed I had been left in the dust. I had been replaced by better things, and life was no longer a fairy tale. You see I moved on, and "got over it" so I thought. But this whole time I have carried around a grudge and a mentality that I was not good enough anymore and that my life just plain ol' sucked.
2 years really.... I wasted you! It was not until 2 weeks ago and I was sitting here contemplating. And then ta=duh, a lightbulb. All this energy you have wasted being mad at this person was for nothing. Because you see this person felt the exact same way about you. That they had been left behind, that they were no longer good enough for you! I should have been overwhelmed with sadness for wasted time, but I became very happy. I finally have the right frame of mind and can go back and repair the hands of time. I can have the world at my hands and I can have what I once had before. Yes not in the same form, but it doesn't matter because it is love! I only hope I did not hurt this person by treating them badly. I know they will read this and to you I say sorry! I am sorry i have played a victim when you have done nothing wrong! I will once again be what you needed me to be for the last 2 years. I promise to be there for you from now on!
I also at the beginning of my blog need to send a shout out to my chicken nuggets. For you are the ones that have inspired me the last few months! An inspiration for much needed change! I hope everyone has a wonderful sabbath day.
Stand a little taller
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