I have not blogged for sometime, and let us just call it what it is lazy. And despite I just took 30 minutes writing a wondeful post and it got erased we are now doing the condensed version. Hopefully still as powerful though.
I have come to realize that most people in their lives have to make at some point and big decision. Now in my short 21 years I have to have very many of these "big" decisions. Sometimes these decisions will question your character, strengthen us and sometimes let others down. Before we make such big decision we think how it will affect those around us. Well at least I would hope we would do that. We owe it to the ones we love to give them such general curteosy. I do believe that you gather most peoples attention by letting our your own dirty laundry fly and so thus I will share a personal story.
Forgiveness: disposition or willingness to forgive. What does that mean to you? Well I thought I knew until a few years ago and now it means a whole new set of things! A few years ago I decided to let someone into my life and share just about everything with this person. I am a very optimistic person and very easy to get along with, so these things come very naturally. I am also at the same time a very naive person too... oops. Well when it came out that this certain person had all about destroyed my reputation and made up all sorts of hiddeous things, I without hesitation decided to send this person packing and kicked them to the curb. Thought I generally do not stand up for myself, it was a very easy decision.
Well now what does forigveness mean to you? I have many people around me that think forgiveness means you should just allow those people you have granted this gift to a 100% clean and new plate. In this particular situation I could not be more on the opposite side. Besides the facts that this person and I should never have been friends in the first place, or that it continues to ruin friendships to this day. I have decided that I will stand up for myself and whatever will be will be for everyone else. In this particular situation I cannot allow myself to move backwards.
So does forgiveness mean that you should allow people to return to the previous trust? I personally do not think so. I think each situation should be evaluated differently. Those people that love and respect you should realize that. They should respect your decision no matter what you decide to do. Just think of your situation I asked about earlier. Did you have to compromise relationships or character to make a decision you did? How did it affect you? Would you go back and change the dynamics of how things went?
They are all things to be taken with consideration and I hope you have made the right decision. Forgiveness is something I do not take lightly. Thought we must be humble enough to receive this gift, we must also do the same in return. So must we learn to forgive and forget? Yes, it is one of the reasons we are here. But does that mean you must let your old habits die hard? Well, I will let you decide for yourself. I love you all and send best wishes.
Stand a little taller
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Best Weekend Ever!!!!!!!
I am such a happy girl this very Sunday. Things are going simply swell for me! I just came off a great split second decision vacation to Las Vegas. And now I am gearing out for a weekend full of rehearsal and WORKING OUT!
Today I would simply like to share with you the story of my vacation. Also so I can write down my adventures so I can go back and remember them.
It was a beautiful Friday. We are sitting in the mall with Ruth and she says, "i wonder if Danny Gokey is on tour right now? So I decided I would go home and look it up, because I LOVE me some Danny Gokey. I opened up his site and saw that he was going to be in Vegas on a 4 day stint. Are you kidding me Danny? I want to see you and you are going to Las Vegas. So I text Danielle this. Well Danny will be in Vegas tomorrow........ In response I get a phone call that goes something like this. He is going to Vegas tomorrow, does that mean you wanna go? Well, ummm yea, duh, sure? So anyways, about 4 hours later we are packed up and on our way to Las Vegas.
We stayed that night in Cedar City with some relatives. The drive down consisted a lot of quoting Will & Grace, and singing Glee. Oh and also driving through some sketchy fog! That night we slept.... kinda? It was some of the worst sleep we had in years. After breakfast we were finally on our way to see our Danny. We got a hotel room for a whole $27! Once checked in we went and parked in the parking garage. This parking garage happened to be just about on the opposite world of the hotel tower. So we walked just about 2 miles through the smelly casino to get to our room. Well hey, I needed the exercise.
Once to our room we decided we needed some food and to find Danielle some shoes for the night. For dinner we ate at the ever delicious Pei Wei! Once through the mall we made our way over to DSW shoes. Let me tell you something too, Danielle has the most expensive taste. This is because every shoe the girl liked in the whole 7 football field place was the most expensive. Thus, Danielle leaves without any shoes!
We finally are now ready and set to go watch Danny Gokey! After what seemed like a 9 hour drive, we finally see the sign!!!! We have now become 14 year old girls. EEEEE! Danny Gokey tonight!!!! I was a little dissapointed because we had missed the opportunity to buy backstage passes! But, I was still sooooo excited to see this man! On the other hand I was particulary excited because well, this day had been so lucky already that I knew only good things would continue to happen!
Valet takes the car, we get in line for will call, took a pee, and sat in our magnificent seats. We have been waiting for this moment for a long, long time. Danny Gokey comes out and put on a magnificent concert! He tells us the adorable story of how he proposed to Sophia, and how he is running is charity. This man is the whole package. Then he is almost done when he says, "my manager says I can sign at the merchandise table after the concert for as many people as time allows." I turn to Danielle, and ask if he really said that and yes he did!!!! We decided we would run AFAP "as fast as possible" to the merchandise table. We are about 15th in line and one of our biggest dreams are about to come true. We buy are posters, have the camera ready and out he comes! It is finally our turn, he signs our posters and takes a picture with Danielle! (cutest picture ever Mrs. Gokey) Ha and then I go to take a picture with him and the camera is our of memory, but that is besides the point! Well, we have just met one of our most favorite singers! WE ARE IN SEVENTH HEAVEN!
Once we had grown up to maybe about 17 years old we decide to move on with our night. Remember when I said we were very tired because the previous nights sleep sucked? Well either on eof us had taken a picture by the famous Las Vegas sign at the end of the strip,. So we park and walk up to the sign, and find Elvis hanging out there. Elvis proceeds to tell us how cool he is and that he has been on t.v. for over 15 years. (so why are you hanging out by the Vegas sign:) He convinces us he has to take our picture and make us give him 5 bucks. Ah haha he was the most strange thing ever! He sand to danielle and all!
At this point I was so excited, weirded out and tired and one person could be. So we decide we need Del Taco before bed. We pull up to the order board and there is a black truck filled with white trash. This was a modified little truck of some sorty. We are sitting their talking waiting for the food when we all of a sudden hear a hissing sound. THIS CAR HAD A HYDROLICS SYSTEM! Haha they were making the car go up and down. I was about to pee my pants laughing.
Well we finally made it to sleep! This had officially become one of the best nights of my life! Well 300 miles later, Danielle's windshield wiper flying off the car in mid drive, and a snow storm later, I am finally home. It was literally 48 hours of lots of laughs and some of the most fun I have ever had!
Today I would simply like to share with you the story of my vacation. Also so I can write down my adventures so I can go back and remember them.
It was a beautiful Friday. We are sitting in the mall with Ruth and she says, "i wonder if Danny Gokey is on tour right now? So I decided I would go home and look it up, because I LOVE me some Danny Gokey. I opened up his site and saw that he was going to be in Vegas on a 4 day stint. Are you kidding me Danny? I want to see you and you are going to Las Vegas. So I text Danielle this. Well Danny will be in Vegas tomorrow........ In response I get a phone call that goes something like this. He is going to Vegas tomorrow, does that mean you wanna go? Well, ummm yea, duh, sure? So anyways, about 4 hours later we are packed up and on our way to Las Vegas.
We stayed that night in Cedar City with some relatives. The drive down consisted a lot of quoting Will & Grace, and singing Glee. Oh and also driving through some sketchy fog! That night we slept.... kinda? It was some of the worst sleep we had in years. After breakfast we were finally on our way to see our Danny. We got a hotel room for a whole $27! Once checked in we went and parked in the parking garage. This parking garage happened to be just about on the opposite world of the hotel tower. So we walked just about 2 miles through the smelly casino to get to our room. Well hey, I needed the exercise.
Once to our room we decided we needed some food and to find Danielle some shoes for the night. For dinner we ate at the ever delicious Pei Wei! Once through the mall we made our way over to DSW shoes. Let me tell you something too, Danielle has the most expensive taste. This is because every shoe the girl liked in the whole 7 football field place was the most expensive. Thus, Danielle leaves without any shoes!
We finally are now ready and set to go watch Danny Gokey! After what seemed like a 9 hour drive, we finally see the sign!!!! We have now become 14 year old girls. EEEEE! Danny Gokey tonight!!!! I was a little dissapointed because we had missed the opportunity to buy backstage passes! But, I was still sooooo excited to see this man! On the other hand I was particulary excited because well, this day had been so lucky already that I knew only good things would continue to happen!
Valet takes the car, we get in line for will call, took a pee, and sat in our magnificent seats. We have been waiting for this moment for a long, long time. Danny Gokey comes out and put on a magnificent concert! He tells us the adorable story of how he proposed to Sophia, and how he is running is charity. This man is the whole package. Then he is almost done when he says, "my manager says I can sign at the merchandise table after the concert for as many people as time allows." I turn to Danielle, and ask if he really said that and yes he did!!!! We decided we would run AFAP "as fast as possible" to the merchandise table. We are about 15th in line and one of our biggest dreams are about to come true. We buy are posters, have the camera ready and out he comes! It is finally our turn, he signs our posters and takes a picture with Danielle! (cutest picture ever Mrs. Gokey) Ha and then I go to take a picture with him and the camera is our of memory, but that is besides the point! Well, we have just met one of our most favorite singers! WE ARE IN SEVENTH HEAVEN!
Once we had grown up to maybe about 17 years old we decide to move on with our night. Remember when I said we were very tired because the previous nights sleep sucked? Well either on eof us had taken a picture by the famous Las Vegas sign at the end of the strip,. So we park and walk up to the sign, and find Elvis hanging out there. Elvis proceeds to tell us how cool he is and that he has been on t.v. for over 15 years. (so why are you hanging out by the Vegas sign:) He convinces us he has to take our picture and make us give him 5 bucks. Ah haha he was the most strange thing ever! He sand to danielle and all!
At this point I was so excited, weirded out and tired and one person could be. So we decide we need Del Taco before bed. We pull up to the order board and there is a black truck filled with white trash. This was a modified little truck of some sorty. We are sitting their talking waiting for the food when we all of a sudden hear a hissing sound. THIS CAR HAD A HYDROLICS SYSTEM! Haha they were making the car go up and down. I was about to pee my pants laughing.
Well we finally made it to sleep! This had officially become one of the best nights of my life! Well 300 miles later, Danielle's windshield wiper flying off the car in mid drive, and a snow storm later, I am finally home. It was literally 48 hours of lots of laughs and some of the most fun I have ever had!
Friday, January 28, 2011
Ignorance is bliss?
And a drum roll please, because it is Friday! Thank the heavens above for the weekend even though oddly enough... I actually hate weekends. This week I have had one of the best weeks in quite some time. I am still here as part of the unemployed world (pathetic I know.) But, I was able to attend the BYU basketball game against SDSU. It was the greatest game I have ever been too. Yes, even better than some of the football games against the U. I have officially fallen in love with Jimmers little smile! He is the darn cutest thing alive! I will be thoroughly entertained by this team in the next few months.
I also have been very grateful for my best good friend Danielle in the last few weeks. I have not had much drive to do anything and she has kept me going. We have had much fun going to the gym and watching American Idol! So to her I say thank you for keeping my ever so boring life happy!
My thought today has to do with the daily TRASH that we are surrounded with! It has been brought to my attention in the last few weeks exactly how horrible all the film entertainment is! I have listened to some people explain to me some horrible scenes from The Black Swan, Jersey Shore, Skins etc. All these trashy "reality" shows are all about sex. Children as young as 14 years old are going through high school worried about who they are going to get "lucky" with. If I am not wrong the Jersey Shore has a room called the "Smash" room, and I can only imagine what that is for. Not only sex but sexuality, drugs, stealing, lying. All these shows depict everything you shouldn't be seeing!
I have only been worried because a few things have been brought to my attention. #1 my 11 year old sister would be able to get home from school, turn on the turn and just be able to see this crap! #2 Can't I watch anything anymore that has my morals and values? The answer is almost everytime NO. There honestly has been about 1 of every 15 movies made that are even up to par with what I like to watch. My favorite is this new Ashton Kutcher movie about casual sex..... ARE YOU KIDDING ME???? I am appaled! I don't care what religion, age, gender, race you are. We are painting a horrible picture for our younger generations. I can't even remember a show when I was 11...only 10 years ago!, that would have anything close to this crap on it. The standards of this young generation are deteriorating so fast! I am sorry but having a "casual sex" buddy is not okay, and just because they fall in love at the end does not make it okay! Why cant someone just write something funny, with good all fashioned humor?
When these kids watch this crap they think it is okay to act like this! Now I get that with every generation things are always changing and evolving. But for things like the F bomb, and drugs, and sex to be incorporated into every day activities is not something to be taken lightly. I apologize for this tangent but I don't think this is okay anymore. It honestly makes me think twice about every having children! Why would I want to bring a child into this world and surround them with such junk?
All I ask is think twice about what your kids are watching and the type of kids they are hanging out with. It is impossible to hide from terrible things, but we can all try to do a little better. Its cool to have morals and values... I PROMISE!
I do hope everyone a wonderful weekend of peace and rest!
Stand a Little Taller
I also have been very grateful for my best good friend Danielle in the last few weeks. I have not had much drive to do anything and she has kept me going. We have had much fun going to the gym and watching American Idol! So to her I say thank you for keeping my ever so boring life happy!
My thought today has to do with the daily TRASH that we are surrounded with! It has been brought to my attention in the last few weeks exactly how horrible all the film entertainment is! I have listened to some people explain to me some horrible scenes from The Black Swan, Jersey Shore, Skins etc. All these trashy "reality" shows are all about sex. Children as young as 14 years old are going through high school worried about who they are going to get "lucky" with. If I am not wrong the Jersey Shore has a room called the "Smash" room, and I can only imagine what that is for. Not only sex but sexuality, drugs, stealing, lying. All these shows depict everything you shouldn't be seeing!
I have only been worried because a few things have been brought to my attention. #1 my 11 year old sister would be able to get home from school, turn on the turn and just be able to see this crap! #2 Can't I watch anything anymore that has my morals and values? The answer is almost everytime NO. There honestly has been about 1 of every 15 movies made that are even up to par with what I like to watch. My favorite is this new Ashton Kutcher movie about casual sex..... ARE YOU KIDDING ME???? I am appaled! I don't care what religion, age, gender, race you are. We are painting a horrible picture for our younger generations. I can't even remember a show when I was 11...only 10 years ago!, that would have anything close to this crap on it. The standards of this young generation are deteriorating so fast! I am sorry but having a "casual sex" buddy is not okay, and just because they fall in love at the end does not make it okay! Why cant someone just write something funny, with good all fashioned humor?
When these kids watch this crap they think it is okay to act like this! Now I get that with every generation things are always changing and evolving. But for things like the F bomb, and drugs, and sex to be incorporated into every day activities is not something to be taken lightly. I apologize for this tangent but I don't think this is okay anymore. It honestly makes me think twice about every having children! Why would I want to bring a child into this world and surround them with such junk?
All I ask is think twice about what your kids are watching and the type of kids they are hanging out with. It is impossible to hide from terrible things, but we can all try to do a little better. Its cool to have morals and values... I PROMISE!
I do hope everyone a wonderful weekend of peace and rest!
Stand a Little Taller
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Big heads and help
Just another day in the drivers seat of an "amazing" life! hehe. I did absolutely nothing most of the day. I did actually stay in bed because I did not feel too well. But then I decided that a little Benni Benassi would put my mind in the right place to do a little working out. Cut to 10:20 tonight and I went and saw The Fighter. It was a beautiful movie! Very wonderfully made with acting like I have not seen in quite a while, Christian Bale did a fabulous job!
Todays thought comes from right out of my amazing brain!! You can take this either as a spiritual meaning or just in day to day life. As being part of our worlds economical trouble, a lot of hard times have hit us. Most people to some extent or another have felt the affects of lost jobs, reposessed homes, reduction of pay, closing of companies, bankruptcy etc. There are very few people you could run into that have not seen some effect of our economy. Some families have turned to working 2 jobs or more, selling homes for apartments, postponing plans for school, etc. In some cases some families have taken another route such as asking for help. Most as for help from family, church, donation, welfare. As being someone who recently had to apply for unemployment I now understand. If you have been an indedependent person and have always made your own way in life, it can be very hard to ask for help. Most believe asking for help means admitting that you have failed or have done something wrong. Just ask your self for a moment how you view some of these situations.
You also can take this content and form it into a spiritual meaning. On a basic level and without being religion specific, just think of what your daily routine for beliefs follow. Most of us believe it is important to have faith and trust in our higher power. While most of us go about our day taking for granted what we have been given, we completely forget what a beautiful gift we have been given. At some point in our lives or another most of us will fall upon "hard times," During these times we forget that we have someone watching over us. If you are anything like me, I fall into a bad habit of only praying when you feel impressed to ask for something. For me this comes with a price of guilt. I hate taking my Heavenly Fathers love for granted and only returning a thank you when I have fallen upon hard times. Never the less, the prayer system has been put in place to give thanks and to ask upon for help. Again comes in the part where we feel a little prideful to ask for help. It will again force us to say out loud something that has gone wrong in our life.
"Just because you ask for help does not mean you have failed, it means your not in it alone."
We have been put here on this earth for other people for a reason. They are here for us and is why we have been given great family and friends. We need to realize that we as humans do not need help just when we have fallen upon hard times. We should go about every day asking for help and returning the help. We can always better our selves! In return for one favor and receiving of another, the task of asking for help when we need it will not be so hard. It is okay to turn to others and ask for help. It is what we call our support system. More than often you will find others are more than happy to help!
Stand a little taller
Todays thought comes from right out of my amazing brain!! You can take this either as a spiritual meaning or just in day to day life. As being part of our worlds economical trouble, a lot of hard times have hit us. Most people to some extent or another have felt the affects of lost jobs, reposessed homes, reduction of pay, closing of companies, bankruptcy etc. There are very few people you could run into that have not seen some effect of our economy. Some families have turned to working 2 jobs or more, selling homes for apartments, postponing plans for school, etc. In some cases some families have taken another route such as asking for help. Most as for help from family, church, donation, welfare. As being someone who recently had to apply for unemployment I now understand. If you have been an indedependent person and have always made your own way in life, it can be very hard to ask for help. Most believe asking for help means admitting that you have failed or have done something wrong. Just ask your self for a moment how you view some of these situations.
You also can take this content and form it into a spiritual meaning. On a basic level and without being religion specific, just think of what your daily routine for beliefs follow. Most of us believe it is important to have faith and trust in our higher power. While most of us go about our day taking for granted what we have been given, we completely forget what a beautiful gift we have been given. At some point in our lives or another most of us will fall upon "hard times," During these times we forget that we have someone watching over us. If you are anything like me, I fall into a bad habit of only praying when you feel impressed to ask for something. For me this comes with a price of guilt. I hate taking my Heavenly Fathers love for granted and only returning a thank you when I have fallen upon hard times. Never the less, the prayer system has been put in place to give thanks and to ask upon for help. Again comes in the part where we feel a little prideful to ask for help. It will again force us to say out loud something that has gone wrong in our life.
"Just because you ask for help does not mean you have failed, it means your not in it alone."
We have been put here on this earth for other people for a reason. They are here for us and is why we have been given great family and friends. We need to realize that we as humans do not need help just when we have fallen upon hard times. We should go about every day asking for help and returning the help. We can always better our selves! In return for one favor and receiving of another, the task of asking for help when we need it will not be so hard. It is okay to turn to others and ask for help. It is what we call our support system. More than often you will find others are more than happy to help!
Stand a little taller
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Your biggest challenge
Today was meh. I was bland and boring and I had a feeling of being worthless. Well because these days I am. I did wake up at a normal hour, and I sat around watching Grey's Anatomy. Its one of my comforting things I have in life. Oh yes, I did make a run down to the drug store with grandpa (this would be the highlight of my day.) I did get in a very good workout with Danielle though. It is something that I hate doing, but I know mmy fat does not go away on its own. So I try to make the habit and move on.
I apologize, I am a little numb today but felt that blogging is a good therapy tool that I enjoy. I am not sure if it is the sound of the keyboard or my new found love for writing? Either way I am here to share!
Todays thought is provoked by my boring life! If you bear with me I may bore you to death today. These days I have been a little on the dont give a living crap side. I have now officially not worked for about a month. Once you have had the joy of sleeping in everyday and not even having a worry about work, it is hard to get motivated to find a job. I also have many challenges that come along with my new life. I cannot for the life of me even imagine going back to an old boring job. In the last few weeks many thoughts have been running through my mind. Can I live without working? Does any one have a job for me in Italy? Can I just make up my own job and gather millions of dollars? I know... I am a dreamer. But, it is hard to sometimes face reality when you have reached the end of the rope. It is very hard on me mentally being 21 and still having no direction for life. I have done nothing to set myself up for future success. For me I do a lot more of beating myself up when I think about my past. No one wants to face reality, but I have been forced to face a harsh one right now.
I literally have sat up at night wondering what it is I could possibly go to school for. Is it a bad sign when you have had the last 6 years to think about it and still nothing sparks my interest? Well, so maybe school is not for me? But I swear I cannot take one more day of customer service! I would literally rather jump off a cliff over the grand canyon.
So what is my fix to all of this? I sit here... I spend my day counting calories and gearing up for my next workout. I spend my days looking through the t.v. beating my self up about my life. Do I complain a lot? yes! Well, maybe that is my problem. So for today that is what is my biggest challenge. I have a lot of life left to go ya know? Will I be faced with the same questions in another 6 years? Hopefully not. Until that point I will put faith in my Heavenly Father and just continue to be a little numb for now.
Stand a little taller
I apologize, I am a little numb today but felt that blogging is a good therapy tool that I enjoy. I am not sure if it is the sound of the keyboard or my new found love for writing? Either way I am here to share!
Todays thought is provoked by my boring life! If you bear with me I may bore you to death today. These days I have been a little on the dont give a living crap side. I have now officially not worked for about a month. Once you have had the joy of sleeping in everyday and not even having a worry about work, it is hard to get motivated to find a job. I also have many challenges that come along with my new life. I cannot for the life of me even imagine going back to an old boring job. In the last few weeks many thoughts have been running through my mind. Can I live without working? Does any one have a job for me in Italy? Can I just make up my own job and gather millions of dollars? I know... I am a dreamer. But, it is hard to sometimes face reality when you have reached the end of the rope. It is very hard on me mentally being 21 and still having no direction for life. I have done nothing to set myself up for future success. For me I do a lot more of beating myself up when I think about my past. No one wants to face reality, but I have been forced to face a harsh one right now.
I literally have sat up at night wondering what it is I could possibly go to school for. Is it a bad sign when you have had the last 6 years to think about it and still nothing sparks my interest? Well, so maybe school is not for me? But I swear I cannot take one more day of customer service! I would literally rather jump off a cliff over the grand canyon.
So what is my fix to all of this? I sit here... I spend my day counting calories and gearing up for my next workout. I spend my days looking through the t.v. beating my self up about my life. Do I complain a lot? yes! Well, maybe that is my problem. So for today that is what is my biggest challenge. I have a lot of life left to go ya know? Will I be faced with the same questions in another 6 years? Hopefully not. Until that point I will put faith in my Heavenly Father and just continue to be a little numb for now.
Stand a little taller
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Fairytales are?
I had quite a magical day today. As many of you know I am blue blooded and a true cougar. I took much pride and joy watching BYU scalp the Utes tonight. Jimmer had 47 point! And also made a half court shot. It doesn't get much better. I also woke up at about noon. I am quite disguisted with my self! P.S. this is the part where I will now be taking suggestions on how to proceed with my life? Because I certainly have no idea!
Has anyone played Just Dance? I am my self quite addicted to it! It is quite the grand time. We played it on Saturday night for about 3 good hours. Lets hope that worked off the McDonalds and sugar cookies Amanda and I ate. That is about the only form of exercise I am getting in the last week. I am having a hard time motivating my self to go to the gym. It just seems so much better when you have someone walking next to you. But when your gym partner (Robyn) bails... I have my 87 grandpa with me! But somehow not the same. Lets hope I can at least stick to my diet and continue to see a little bit of weight loss. Maybe next week my give a damn will be in check.
Todays thought is brought to me by Grey's Anatomy. I have also dreamed of working in the medical profession. Specifically I have always dreamed of being a Cardio Thoracic surgeon. Lets just all laugh in synch, becasue there is no way in hell I am smart enough for that! Okay, so I will just live vicariously through Grety's Anatomy.If anyone has watched the show they will know it start usually with Meredith giving a quote or saying something profound that has to do with the episode and also ends the same way. One of my favorite episodes has to do with fairytales. It begins and has you think of your fairytale and I will ask you to do the same. What is your fairytale? In the change of a new year I am on the search this year for the fairytale of my own. I believe I am doing nesseccary changes to get my much needed fairytale. I have many of them, losing weight, starting my life over, finding where I belong in the world of work, finding my eternal companion.
I have a vision of endless smarts coming to me and tuition being paid so I can become a doctor. I will meet the man of my dreams in this ivy league school I go too. We will get married and have 3 beautiful children. In this life we will live in Virginia and have a vacation home Florida. We will eventually be able to travel to Italy (because I will be fluent in this language) and live there every summer. Once retirement comes along we will build a white house with blue shutter and a wrap around porch. And it is there we will live our last days surrounded by 3 generations of posterity.
Oh wait, come back to reality crazy! Fairytales are the stuff of dreams. They are as one, and never come true!
Stand a little taller
Has anyone played Just Dance? I am my self quite addicted to it! It is quite the grand time. We played it on Saturday night for about 3 good hours. Lets hope that worked off the McDonalds and sugar cookies Amanda and I ate. That is about the only form of exercise I am getting in the last week. I am having a hard time motivating my self to go to the gym. It just seems so much better when you have someone walking next to you. But when your gym partner (Robyn) bails... I have my 87 grandpa with me! But somehow not the same. Lets hope I can at least stick to my diet and continue to see a little bit of weight loss. Maybe next week my give a damn will be in check.
Todays thought is brought to me by Grey's Anatomy. I have also dreamed of working in the medical profession. Specifically I have always dreamed of being a Cardio Thoracic surgeon. Lets just all laugh in synch, becasue there is no way in hell I am smart enough for that! Okay, so I will just live vicariously through Grety's Anatomy.If anyone has watched the show they will know it start usually with Meredith giving a quote or saying something profound that has to do with the episode and also ends the same way. One of my favorite episodes has to do with fairytales. It begins and has you think of your fairytale and I will ask you to do the same. What is your fairytale? In the change of a new year I am on the search this year for the fairytale of my own. I believe I am doing nesseccary changes to get my much needed fairytale. I have many of them, losing weight, starting my life over, finding where I belong in the world of work, finding my eternal companion.
I have a vision of endless smarts coming to me and tuition being paid so I can become a doctor. I will meet the man of my dreams in this ivy league school I go too. We will get married and have 3 beautiful children. In this life we will live in Virginia and have a vacation home Florida. We will eventually be able to travel to Italy (because I will be fluent in this language) and live there every summer. Once retirement comes along we will build a white house with blue shutter and a wrap around porch. And it is there we will live our last days surrounded by 3 generations of posterity.
Oh wait, come back to reality crazy! Fairytales are the stuff of dreams. They are as one, and never come true!
Stand a little taller
Friday, January 7, 2011
Keep moving forward
I am very saddened by a broken promise and I have missed 2 days of blogging. You can say like with Josh Groban that I am obsessed with it. I had a BEAUTIFUL time in St. George with my Mom! It was great to spend time with her. On the way back in the stinking construction zone i ran right over an orange cone, and it never came out the other side. haha, then we could feel it dragging on the bottom of the car. So about 3 miles later pop!, there it goes out the back side! While there we also enjoyed some fine chinese cuisine... and whie paying a little baby cockroach crawled accross the checkout counter. Eek!
Today I spent the better part of the day cleaning up my Christmas junk! It does feel much better to put things away and have all decoration back to normal and have everything put away. I believe I get too excited about re organizing and a clean bedroom. But, I am sure that is a quality not to be complained of.
I also spent the whole day dying of hunder. I am still following my diet, and well this weeks diet sucks. I do vow to stay with it though. I feel very strongly about me losing my weight this time! I hate the act of this lifestyle change, but I know I will feel so much better when I reach this goal! I can't even imagine being skinnier, I wonder what it is like. I hope I do not have to wonder much longer. I am staying motivated by the biggest loser. That show is so very addicting!
Todays thought comes from a quote by a man that inspires me almost above any other public figure. This man is Walt Disney. "Around here, however, we do not look backwards for very long. We keep moving forward, opening up new doors and doing new things... and curiosity will keep leading us down new paths". It simply speaks for itself. I simply hate new years resolutions. Whenever I feel inspiration come through is when I start a "resolution" And at this time I have dubbed this year all about me. I am putting a foot down and taking this year for myself. I am going to be selfish and try to learn more about my self. I feel as if I have not taken a moment to understand what it is I want from life. I find myself always at the mercy of wanting to make others happy and never have contention, and this results in bad decisions made on my part. There is plenty of things I need to fix and change in my life. I have vowed to do that this year, and I am off to a great start! I am okay with being selfish for a while. I hope to adopt many lifestyle changes and adopting new habits. I feel it in the back of my mind, I have a little voice telling me, stop looking backwards, open new doors and KEEP MOVING FORWARD! That is the 2nd of my two mottos KEEP MOVING FORWARD! I believe we all owe it to ourselves to stop and reflect, get over it and move forward. So take a moment to think what you would like to move forward with, or get over with. Have a clean heart and mind and I believe that this will bring us back to happiness.
Stand a little taller
Today I spent the better part of the day cleaning up my Christmas junk! It does feel much better to put things away and have all decoration back to normal and have everything put away. I believe I get too excited about re organizing and a clean bedroom. But, I am sure that is a quality not to be complained of.
I also spent the whole day dying of hunder. I am still following my diet, and well this weeks diet sucks. I do vow to stay with it though. I feel very strongly about me losing my weight this time! I hate the act of this lifestyle change, but I know I will feel so much better when I reach this goal! I can't even imagine being skinnier, I wonder what it is like. I hope I do not have to wonder much longer. I am staying motivated by the biggest loser. That show is so very addicting!
Todays thought comes from a quote by a man that inspires me almost above any other public figure. This man is Walt Disney. "Around here, however, we do not look backwards for very long. We keep moving forward, opening up new doors and doing new things... and curiosity will keep leading us down new paths". It simply speaks for itself. I simply hate new years resolutions. Whenever I feel inspiration come through is when I start a "resolution" And at this time I have dubbed this year all about me. I am putting a foot down and taking this year for myself. I am going to be selfish and try to learn more about my self. I feel as if I have not taken a moment to understand what it is I want from life. I find myself always at the mercy of wanting to make others happy and never have contention, and this results in bad decisions made on my part. There is plenty of things I need to fix and change in my life. I have vowed to do that this year, and I am off to a great start! I am okay with being selfish for a while. I hope to adopt many lifestyle changes and adopting new habits. I feel it in the back of my mind, I have a little voice telling me, stop looking backwards, open new doors and KEEP MOVING FORWARD! That is the 2nd of my two mottos KEEP MOVING FORWARD! I believe we all owe it to ourselves to stop and reflect, get over it and move forward. So take a moment to think what you would like to move forward with, or get over with. Have a clean heart and mind and I believe that this will bring us back to happiness.
Stand a little taller
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